I can’t recall who said that ‘every composition falls short’. While I certainly don’t think every piece is a disappointment to the composer, more often than not they turn out to be different to what you expect or intend - sometimes significantly so!
One of the parameters I put in place for my CoDI Buddies piece was to make it musically challenging but not technically so. This resulted in music that had a number of different rhythmic strands which ultimately proved difficult to coordinate in the time allotted. It is the job of the composer to examine and listen intently to the musical material so that it reveals it own destiny and ideal form. The composer must then use skill, experience and imagination to find a way for this to manifest itself in a practicable way.
As the notes fade into the Sunday night air it is becoming clear that what was intended to be the opening of Abergavenny Music will now be somewhere near the climax of the movement and the various strands that come together here will need to follow their own individual journeys before being brought to interact.
So, will Abergavenny Music turn out differently to what I had envisaged when writing the original application? Absolutely. Without the opportunity to try out these ideas; to understand how they work aurally and musically but also practically for the musicians, this piece would certainly be following a more pre-ordained course. Hopefully, rather than falling short, it will bloom into something more interesting than I could have originally imagined. And, in challenging myself as a composer, I am now more open to other ways of working and to a more collaborative way of engaging with performers. In this sense, it might be argued that this process is already showing itself to be a success!
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